DREAM

wow, just wake up after a funny dream. so weird, avone that i not know turned up in my dream, i dreamt on the guy who i saw in the medical centre yesterday. haha.....he is a china guy (because i saw he passed the passport to nurse), hmm, age about early 20, around 175cm height, fair skin, round eye and a charming smile, especially when he threw me an embarass smile....haha...because the time the nurse called my name, he was the one turned up to counter, haha...and when he realized on his blurry act, he smile embarassly to me, so cute.

in my dream, he looked more handsome and charming, and i couldn't stop myself to ask his phone number, but he didn't want to give me. i never gave up, and chased him till lrt station, finally, he gave me number started with +89xxxx, unfortunately it stopped in half way, because my uncle came to pick me up.....

suddenlly the dream change, now, i was in the car, my uncle disappeared, and my bro drove the car, i was so happy that my bro is back....but, there were few people inside the car too, they kept laughing at me because i couldn't got the guy number, and they teased me, said i am ugly lar, fat lar, stupid lar....my whole heart dived into deep hole.....suddenlly, the guy appeared again...and he joined them to tease me....

after i woke up from this, he still kept flashing in my mind, haha..really regretted that i didn;t step back deliberately to wait him. .haha(he just queued after me for the bill payment)

silly i...lol

Surprise!!!!

Finally, the result sheet has delivered to my home. i'm the one who received from postman, wow, i held it with my trembling hand, and passed it to my mum, asked her to examine my result.

but she really bad, she didn't want to have a look on it, and threw my letter aside, haha, i was damn nervous at that time, i really hoped i wouldn't get disappointment. i unsealed the envelop, and passed it to mum again.

i tried to have a glance aside, oh gosh, i saw an A appear on the top, the stone on my heart was moved abit, the A pushed me to peek the others, erm, second row, B+...not bad, while i was going to peek another, my mum gave me a please look....she smiled at me and said, "wei, is ur course very easy to study ar?" i reply her in a wonder look, what did she means? and she handed me the letter and said, "u give papa see lar"...i fastly grabbed it and looked, oh....really hard to believe it, hard to believe that i've made it.......

3As and a B+ is stated in the result sheet, i shocked for a while, and then, i screamed...."mum, really, the lecturers are good to me!!!wahahaha"....

the surprise finally come, and this result will give me another push to continue my degree, and i hope i'll pay the same effort into my degree study.

Desparing

my hp beeped and woke me up in this morning. it was message from Franchesca, saying our result was out today. Suddenlly, i couldn't continue my sleep, i was nervous with that. i dared not to know my result, because, i've expected too much on it, and i definitely will disappoint with it.

my mind kept flashing back to the exam time, i wasn't did well in the exam. Maybe i have a very slow nerve sensation, i wasn't sad right after the exam, until now, i only realized it is impossible for me to score A in all the subjects.

i'm feeling bad now, sometimes i think, it would be better without any expectation or hope, isn't it? Unlike past time, i never concerned on my result, and i'd had never felt sad on my results. but why now..........

There's only a reason can explain it - my past results levelled me up.....it is normal for man to always move forward but not backward, and it is totally happen to me now. i have to admit i was very lucky in past 2 semesters, and the luckies are frustrating me now....

i've done some evaluation for the last semester. Overall, i didn't perform well, i always skipped classes, means my attentance and participation will be marked low. In contrast, i had a full attentance in sem before this, i was quite active in classes too. Eventhough i had paid great attention to lecturer in this sem, however, my attendance and participation will drag down my overall performance. Sigh............

My downline is at least get 2A out of 4 subjects and no C in my list. Haha....my expectation is too high, isn't it? this is why i afraid to see my result, at least, my hope is still exist.

better take some good sleep now, and pray that my anxious will vanish after i wake up in the next morning, i'd better pretend not know about the release of result, and maybe someday, the result will surprise me......hehe...

GIA GIA

there were somethings terrible and horrified me in this week...erm, maybe i should read "tong seng", to alert me when is the best time to out. i'm not blind worship to the feng shui, anyway, i rather believe it. haha...

first, sunday, while the whole kl was stucked in flood, my house didn't want to leave behind, it played the flood too. OMG....the rain kept dropping, and the flood in my house kept rising, WTF, we quickly moved all the things to higher place, and it caused my bed collapse. The flood wasn't that high, about 1 inch, the most terrible thing was the smell, the dirty long kang water mades my hse smell like long kang...the floor happened at 8 something, while i was enjoying the "guess guess guess", it cames damn fast, took about 5 minutes to cover all my house. i had to use some tubs to pour the water away..pretty smelly man!!! wah...that day really tired me, fought to the flood from 9pm to 4am, even though the rain was stopped at 10 something, but i had to clean the house, mopped the floor again and again.....

ok, the terrible flood has gone, i thought the night has gone, and another sunshine is waiting me. However, it is not.

i went to desa to exchange my broken cd yesterday. As usual, it was hard to find a parking space in desa, i double parked my car and left my phone number in the windscreen. This was what i always did during my time in IACT. ok, i went to the shop, (my sister was with me), and the shop was too pack at that moment, maybe ppl went to the shop to escape the rain. i had totally forgotten my car was blocking others car, because i thought others would rang me to remove my car. Half an hour had gone, and the rain stopped. The shopkeeper dragged my half an hour time, in the reason of he couldn't handled too many customers in same time. fine, i didn't care since i have lot of time to waste...(lol). when me and my sister were about to take my car, oh sh*t, i saw a Sikh stood beside my car with frown, i din care, and wanted to leave. Suddenlly the Sikh held the door, he didn't allow my sister to close the car door. He pointed at me and scolded angrily in the public:

" u know what u've done? u blocked me for half an hour, and now i'm going to give u half an hour lesson, if you are boy, i sure will get a hammer and bang ur head!luckily u are woman, bitch!"

i apologized to him, since i knew it was my fault, and was my negligence to cause it. but the Sikh refused to forgive me:

"i've already called the police, but i dunno how come they still haven't arrived, others asked me to smash ur car, but i dun 1, i want police to drag ur car away, and penalty u.Bitch, i'm going to fetch my son in half an hour ago, dun u know, if my son is in medical emergency, can u bear the responsible? Son of Bitch!"

he was going to touch my sister (because my sister was close to him), i stopped him immediately and warned him not to harm my sister, i quickly locked my sister inside the car, and wanted to have a nice talk with that Sikh, (haha..i think thing too easily....)

The Sikh hadn't calmed down, kept scolding me in public, wow, damn shame, lot of people stood aside and watched this "show". i asked the Sikh not to waste his time in giving me lesson, better for him rush to fetch his son.

" TOO LATE, i was supposed to be there at 340pm, what is the time now! Is this ur name and ur address?" wow, how come he had my information? oh, i left my pos laju receipt in the windscreen too, no wonder he copied all my information down. but the thing is, since he has got my number, why he never called me to move my car?

i was afraid he would did anything base on my data, i told him i was ready to receive any legal punishment, and warned him better not take any illegal action against me and my family. but he threatened me:

"i dunno, if something happend to my son, i dunno what will i do on you!!!!"

walauer, if i really engage in any accident, this fellow will be the first suspicion!!

he sounded like his son was in very emergency stage, it mdes me worried about his son safety, and i asked him more about his son.

"Bitch, u r IRRESPONSIBLE, i am going to fetch my son from school!!!can u imagine the dangerous of a kid standing under the rain, waiting his father to fetch him with hungrily??"

i thought his son is aged about 5 or 6, and i understand the danger of the kid stay alone outside, i felt more guilty and worry. then i asked detaily about his son.

"he is 12 now, and is waiting me to fetch him.....!!!"

opps, aiyo uncle, now i only know he purposely wanted to malu me in public, 12 years old kid won't so stupid gua, stand under the rain hungrily, some more, if he really rushed to fetch his son, why he still waste time here.....and if.. if.. it is really urgent, he can leave his car here and go by taxi.......

i tried to get the Sikh phone number for secure, in case if it is somethings happen, i still can contact the fellow, but he refused to give me and chased me out...Finally, he let me go, i went inside my car, wow....i felt my whole body was trembling, my hand became cold....i quickly moved my car, but the fellow didn't back to his car, instead, he went to somewhere else. haih.....i'm pretty sure his son had been fetched by somebody.

it was really a lesson for me, i am suffer in desa phobia already, i bet i won't go to desa within these few weeks....i told this story to my friends, some of them said i'm heroine, but....frens, it is no easy to be heroine, is the situation force me to be....*sob*sob*

Mum's comment on her three daughters

one day, Mrs Tan, suddenlly stared at her youngest daughter, and thrown her eldest daugther a comment on her youngest daughter.

Mrs Tan: erm...mei, look at ur sister, actually she is quite pretty.

Eldest daughter: yayaya.....(reply perfunctorily)

Mrs Tan: sometimes hor, i've found sean(youngest daughter) is even prettier than khim (second daughter)...

Eldest daughter: humnnn....(watching tv)

Mrs Tan: u c, if u look sean longly, u will find that sean is looks more prettier, and khim, she will grabs a good impression, but her charm can't last for last....because ppl will find that she looks fiercely.

Eldest daugther: but...she has a pair of charming eyes.

Mrs Tan: yup, she really has a round and big eyes, but her eyes damn fierce.....but sean, she has a kindness outfit....ppl will feel more comfortable to stay with her....actually is her character makes her looks prettier.....

Eldest daugther: then u means khim does not has good attitude lar.....

Mrs Tan: i didn't mean it, actually, both of them also pretty...hahaha....

Eldest daughter: i'm their big sister, they look pretty means i'm pretty too lo...hahaha

Mrs Tan: u ar........not ugly lor...

Eldest daughter: not fair....u said them pretty but me...not ugly only.....

Mrs Tan: because u aren't looks like them mar.....

Eldest daughter: where got...

Mrs Tan: u ar...looks like a guy....so huge....aren't like ur 2 sisters, small and slim....

Eldest daughter: (mumbling) =.=" is ur fault........................